Saturday, April 17, 2010

I Don't Know What To Do...

The most terrible, heartbreaking thing in the world happened. My dorm neighbor from freshman year (and then again when we moved into our townhouse) lost her beautiful five-month-old daughter on Wednesday. She simply passed away in her sleep.

And I can't handle it.

I've been sobbing since Wednesday night.

I can't imagine what their family is going through.

I visited with her mom last night. She was the one who found the baby. All I could do was hold her hand and cry with her.

I want to go to the memorial service today, but I want to go and be strong for the family. I don't want to go and break down. And I don't know if I can handle a tiny coffin.

I wish I hadn't been so upset about losing my stupid phone.

I don't want this post to sound as selfish as it does.

I've been watching my children sleep a lot lately.

I want the K* family to know how much I love them and feel for them. And that I think about them often. And I would literally do anything to help ease the world of pain I can only imagine they are going through.

I don't know what else to do.

5 comments:

Steffy said...

I'm so sorry for their loss. I don't understand why this sort of thing happens, it breaks my heart. I will keep their family (and you) in my prayers.

debbie said...

Sarah, that is heartbreaking. It's just unimaginable. I read a few blogs of moms who have lost a baby and there are moments I feel like I can feel their pain, just for a second, and it's unbearable. Here is a link to a blog where a mom writes about how to treat a friend who is dealing with such a loss. I hope some of it helps you. Love, Debbie

http://adailyscoop.blogspot.com/2008/07/how-to-treat-friend-who-has-suffered_7959.html

Cel and JP said...

It's a tragic thing to endure. Especially when such an innocent life was touched. I don't know everything, but I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for the salvation of each of his children. I am so touched by Joe and Candida's courage to bring this little life into the world, and grant her the chance to gain a body and complete her mortal experience. There is a bond that ties women together not just in joy and celebration, but also in loss and grief. Your hearts are knit together. It's natural that you would feel her pain as literally as if it were your own. Heavenly Father planted such feelings of tenderness and compassion within our hearts to help us serve each other better and to better utilize the atonement. The times I've had severe grief in my life, yes, it has been helpful to have others be strong around me, but also, there have been times when I needed someone to weep with, someone to acknowledge that yes, this is horrible. This is heartbreaking, and give me permission to grieve. Letting her family know that you are there, and not afraid of the rawness of what they have experienced, is probably exactly what they need. In short, though you feel helpless, you are helping by lifting and sharing this burden. They are blessed to have you in their lives. I pray for all those who have been touched by this loss, including you, my blog friend :) I hope you all find the peace and comfort you need to get through this difficult time. <3

Brad and Hailey said...

That completely breaks my heart. I am so sorry and let them know that their family will be in our prayers. I can't imagine the pain they must be going through.

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